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It’s getting harder by the day

Wondering what you’d be doing tonight

The day is drawing nearer each day

When we were suppose to meet

I dreamt that when all is done

In the sacred place, in His sanctuary

You would swing by my humble abode

We would laugh away the night

In secrecy we would

Cuddle under the velvety sky

Counting the stars

Not wanting to think the future

That we wanted but now fail to ignore

I remember long ago

The fire of annoyance lighting our way

Until it fizzled out

With much fear I chose the path

Leading to your heart

Didn’t you choose the same?

You’ve let me be

High and dry in the highway

I’ve been too far already

To head back home alone in this cold night

Wouldn’t you at least lend me your flickering light?

The couch reminds me of you

And I fail each day not to stare at its emptiness

I don’t enjoy swinging by anymore

The place I once frequented

We made memories there

I remember the minute detail,

Your gentle touch,

The fire in your eyes

I can still hear your heartbeat

While you now seem to forget it all

You filled that empty street for a while

Now it’s empty and dark all over again

A mountain of pride tells me each day

That I’ve been wronged

I’ve seen it with my eyes

The betrayal in your gait

It keeps me calm during the day

Drives me to work and reach me home safe

But as I lay to rest in the night

The quietness reminds me again

How much I miss you

And I lie to myself that you didn’t wrong me at all

That I brought all these upon myself.